Wondering...

Dear my hopefully someday,
     I just really want things to work out. I know I shouldn't sit here and think about it, but I can't stop wondering if you saw my message or not. Maybe you didn't, but maybe you did. And if you did are you just ignoring me? Or maybe you're like me, maybe you don't know what to say back, maybe you are like me and have to build up the confidence to answer me. I'm trying to stay positive and I know you're busy, but with each passing minute without a response I become even more hopeless. I'm beginning to regret it, I'm regretting sending you the message, but then again I know if I didn't send it I might regret it even more. I think the reason I regret it is because I'm thinking the truth may be coming out, everything was all in my head, and you don't want anything to do with me and nothing will ever happen between us and you will become just that one guy, who never became my someday. I just hope that this isn't true and later today or even tomorrow or anytime before we go back to school you message me back. The reason I say before we go back to school is because I don't know if I can pass you in the morning and look at you without breaking down crying or walking up to you and just asking if you saw my message and if you ignored it or why you didn't respond, so please all I'm asking for is an answer, at this point I'm even ready to take the fact that you don't want to talk, but could you at least tell me so I'm not sitting here wondering?
                                                                   Sincerely, wondering