Dear My Hopefully Someday,
I know it's been quite a while since I've wrote, and last time I wrote it was addressed 'dear my never'. Not much has happened to be honest. After I had that fight over you with my 'bestfriend' things between her and I have never really been the same again. As for things between you and I, well there's nothing, so I finally gave up, until yesterday. I hadn't seen you since the last day of school, which was a month ago, then I saw you yesterday. I spent part of the day with you, I sat right by you, we were in group conversations together, but I still felt the awkwardness between us, and I know you felt it too, because you didn't look directly at me, at least not when I looked back, the one time I looked up I saw you look at me, but when you saw my eyes near you, you looked away. When you left though, it confused me, because after all that time at the party when you basically ignored me except for the awkward looks and small talk, you looked directly at me and said bye. You looked right at me, and the truth is, I don't know if you meant to or not, but you did, and it really screwed with my feelings. I realized I like you again, actually I realized I still like you because I don't think I ever stopped. Even though you weren't talking directly to me, I really liked hearing you talk, and I really forgot how funny you are. As much as I may not want to, I like you, and the sad truth is, I don't think anything is ever going to happen between us, but for now I won't give up hope.
Sincerely, Not giving up.
