I guess everything's over ...

Dear my never...
     Yesterday I felt something I've never felt before. I'm not even really sure what it was but it was awful. I was on the phone with one of my bestfriends, the one who told me to message you, and we were doing our math homework and she said that she had to tell me something and that she didn't want me to get mad. I prepared myself for what I figured the truth was, that you liked her, or that you were getting back together with your ex (which now I wish was the secret). The secret was that my bestfriend likes you now too. It sucks a lot, especially since before break started is when I told her I liked you, then she told me to talk to you, then she tells me near the end of spring break she realized she liked you too. I know she can't help the way she feels but she hung out with you for your sport's sprig break trip knowing that I liked you! It just really hurts a lot. I honestly am still in shock and just feel like I'm gonna wake up and this all be a dream...I know she told me she didn't want to hurt me, but the truth is she did...I don't understand how she could do this to me. I can't stop thinking about it or you. I don't even know how to handle it. It's not fair because she always had a guy or is talking to someone and now she has who I want, who I've wanted since September and she's wanted for less than a week. And less then two weeks ago she was sitting in my room cryin over her ex, but now who cares. It sucks too because I feel like she has a better chance wih you than I ever did..and she said don't worry because nothing was happening between you two, but I have a reason to believe you like her. When I texted her about it a while after she told me all she said was that she loved me and our friendship and didn't want to hurt me. Well, she did, and I think the worst part is that it was kinda like she didn't care about how I felt, and she said don't worry nothing's happening, but I can't help but wonder, if it did would she go out with you knowing how much I like you, or what if anyway possible something happened between me and you, would she be mad? But then again she has no right to be. I love her but right now I don't know how to feel, honestly I just kind of feel betrayed... And I know if the situation was reversed, she would e so mad at me and she would probably never talk to me again but  she expects me to be fine with it and accept it! I'm so confused and hurt I don't even know what to say anymore. I do know I'll miss you, because I don't think we're ever going to be together. And I'm really upset by that but I guess I should move on, even as much as it hurts.
                                                       Sincerely, I guess everything's over.