Wondering if you'd care.

Dear my hopefully someday,
     I've been thinking lately, about this blog, and whether or not I wish you knew about it. At times I wish you knew because then, maybe you would realize just how much you mean to me and how I feel. But then again i'm glad you don't know because I feel like if you read this, you would think it's creepy or dumb how much I care for you...or maybe you would just laugh. Maybe you would laugh at the thought of me actually thinking we could have something. I don't know if you'll ever see these "letters" or if I even ever want you to. I don't really know what's a good idea anymore....If I told you about this blog somehow, would you even read it? Or if I gave it to you anonymously and you read it, would you care enough to find out who wrote it?
                                                       Sincerely, wondering if you'd care.