Wishing there was a time machine

Dear my hopefully someday,
      It hurts knowing I care about you so much, and it seems like you could care less about me. Recently I've been starting to think that I just want you in my life, even if you just become my friend, just so I could talk to you and not so feel awkward when I see you, but I know this would be a mistake since it would only make me want to be with you more. It would probably make me more jealous too. I don't think you realize that I've been waiting for you all this time. That new hopefully someday I talked about, let's face it, it probably won't work out, and to be honest I don't think I could get over you and forget you enough to move on. The truth is, I've been waiting for you since back when we were actually talking, and I believe I'll wait for you for a while. I've been thinking that I'm just waiting until you're available because that's when I'll be able to take my chance and if things don't work out then, that's when I can move on. I keep thinking about how much I could go back in time and change things because if I could everything would be so different and you might be mine right now.
                                    Sincerely, wishing there was a time machine.