Teardrops on my paper

Dear my hopefully someday,
     It's days like today where I thought about you, but it's also days like today where I also thought about him. Today has just been a really lonely day, my friends seem to have disappeared, and I just feel alone. I thought about you and how I wish you could be here so I didn't feel so alone, but then I thought, it doesn't matter because you're probably with her, so that's when I started to think of him, and how maybe he could comfort me and help me be less lonely than you could, because more and more lately, it feels like we haven't been noticing each other as much, and I'm starting to think that everything and anything that ever happened between us has been forgotten. I don't want that to be forgotten because I've still been hoping and wishing that one day those things can happen again and even go farther this time, but I'm starting to think they never will, and that makes me so sad. If I was actually writing this 'letter' on paper right now there would be water marks from all my tears hitting the paper as I write this because in all these thoughts, I realize how alone I am. Maybe having a new someone will help me not feel so alone, but then again things probably won't work out once again and I'll be even more alone. I'm just so tired of being sad and lonely and I'm even getting kind of tired of always thinking about you.
                                               Sincerely, teardrops on my paper